Mommy...Where do babies come from???

Thursday, January 29, 2009

What were they thinking???

Can I just say something here?

What in the name of Sam were the wonderful folks at the ink pad factories thinking when they made them PURPLE!?!?!

Could they not foresee the babies finding them and playing in them? I mean really now...

If they have to make something so darn interesting to children at least do it in a color that does not make them look like they are bruised and battered! And if you must do it in that perfect shade of purple, at least make the stuff a bit more washable!

*stepping down from my soap box*

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Yet another wonderful effect....

I have been reading a lot lately about the effects of leaving a cult. WOW! Let me tell you what, It is amazing how so many people are going through the same things as my family! Luke and I have always been so close and never really had much in the way of problems, but this has been so hard on our family life. It's like we have to go back to the way things were before we ever joined "the church". It's almost as if we stopped growing as human beings and as man and wife for the entire time we were members. Does this make sense? I don't know how to explain it. We were so into doing everything the "right" way and being the perfect Mormon family, it's like we just stopped growing. Now we have left and its like we have taken a major step backwards in our family life. We were both so burnt out on being "perfect" we just wanted to be blaaa for a while, ya know? I am so frustrated with this all, I just want to scream! For the entire time we were members we had an answer for everything. What we can do, what we can't do, what we should be doing etc. If we didn't know, we asked, and bet your bottom, there was an answer. Ugh...

Our family changed so much when we joined the church, and not all of it was a negative change. We became very close and did all of the right things like pray together all of the time and read our scriptures daily, and do a family night once a week etc. All we wanted to do was please God, which we thought we were doing. We lived extremely wholesome lives, no alcohol, tobacco, nothing that could be considered sinful, I guess. Well when we left, we still wanted to please God but we were also going through a separation time from the church, so one of the first things we did was go buy a sweet tea...I know, I know waaahoooo were wild ones huh? But to a good Mormon family this was HUGE! This is strictly against the Word Of Wisdom (a Mormon rule so to say), and it was so liberating I guess you could say. Next of course came the 6 pack of beer, we had sooo much fun that night, it was like we were kids again sneaking around lol. Of course, i don't see a problem with doing any of these things, but it started a whole routine of not wanting to do anything that came along with joining the church. We just became so relaxed about everything that we became kind of lazy I suppose. This makes me crazy, I want that life, not the life of having to be "perfect" and Mormon, but the family life we had. Now that we don't have that strain to do everything just so or our family isn't going to be in heaven together for all of eternity, it is so hard to start that growing process again. Like I was saying before, it is like we are back at square one, but this time there is no pressure to be there. I swear, it's like we literally lost all of that time out of our lives and we are starting back at the day we joined.
I am at a loss right now, and probably just rambling because I am so frustrated. Luke and I are butting heads constantly right now which is so not like us. I am frustrated that our family life has changed so much, and he is so burnt out on all of it, we are both just clashing like you wouldn't believe. Ugh...
Well, thanks for reading, I hope that this made a little bit of sense to everyone who reads it, I know I am rambling like a mad women, but it feels good to get it off my chest so thanks for reading ;)

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

She gave me "The Bird"!

Ahhhhh Christmas... The Family, the friends, the laughter, the wine... How fun those times are, and what great memories they make.

My husband and I got one little extra memory this year. My daughter let us know that we taught her something brand new, for her 5 year old world.
Tell me this, how many of you have not, thinking how sneaky you are, flipped someone the old "scratch the nose bird"? Especially when you mix in a tad of wine, and some good old fashioned sarcasm with the family love. It was bound to happen a time or two over the holidays...

Recently, Luke and I were in the kitchen talking while Lily was suppose to be cleaning up her mess from doing a craft. She came to the kitchen door and started to inch her way past us, so that she could go down stairs and play instead of finishing. Of course we were "on to her", and out pops the infamous "mom look". "Lily, what are you doing?" " I want to go play." "No, you go finish cleaning up your mess and then you may play."
And then it happened!
My 5 year old looks down with an eye roll and starts scratching her nose with none other than the good old "scratch the nose bird" !!!!!!!
Needless to say, Our jaws both dropped! We started, and tried really hard, to let her know that that was not OK, but dang it, we just couldn't contain it! We both burst out laughing, and not just any laugh, we got to the can't breath laughing state! Of course, she just looked at us like we are morons and turned to her task at hand.

Oh motherhood! How many times can you screw up before you just have to laugh? I know as a mother, it is my job to be stern and let her know that that is not the greatest behavior to display, but I just couldn't get it out at that moment. I did let her know later, but dang, it was hard to keep my composer long enough, even then.

I can truly say, I will never forget that as long as I live, it was just too dang funny!

Thursday, October 30, 2008

"ummm I'm 16, thank you"

I don't care what the mirror is telling me..... I am still 16....Aren't I?

It happens to the best of us, doesn't it? That wonderful day, when we realise that teenagers look at us as....Old and ummmm so not cool.....

"WHAT!?"

"I am not old!"

"When did it happen?"

"I'm a...MOM?"

"No"

"Really?"

I can't be the only mom that sits, some days, and wonders how life happened so fast. I may be a mom, I may not be cool "anymore", but when did I become....Old?

All of a sudden, you go to a high school to watch your niece dance, and while there it dawns on you... These kids are just babies.

Isn't it funny how mature and big you feel when your in high school? Then years later it finally hits you... "Wow, these kids are just babies...I mean look at em', they are so young!" But I wasn't a baby when I was a teenager....Was I???

"Oh No! I AM old!"

Just some of my random thoughts for the day... How did life happen so fast? Now my thoughts are focused on children of my own! Wow, I really am a *whispers* big person* aren't I?

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I think it is FINALLY going to happen!!!!!!

Ok so, we moved here mainly for a job out at the area. My husband got a job with a company called Con-way Trucking until the job opened out at the area. Weeeell, the job ended up getting pushed waaaaay back because of a union dispute.

The man that was going to help Luke get the job just called!!! 4 new jobs are opening this Friday, and they will be posted on Monday!!!! He is friends with the managers of all 4 jobs, and he said that he is confident he can get Luke the job!!!!!! This is WONDERFUL news for us! The job pays almost $17.00 MORE an hour than he is making now!!!!

Any ways, I am just praying, praying, praying, that nothing falls through and he gets the job! even more important than the money, my husband won't have to work nights any more! That is soooooo hard on us, so nothing would make me happier right now than for him to be home at night....

Wish us luck!