My decision to leave....My LDS faith

I have come to a cross road in my life that has presented me with a lot of confusion, and a lot of difficult decisions....My faith.
My husband and I have recently discovered that we can no longer push aside issues that we have with our faith. God was speaking to us, He was telling us that something was wrong.
If you have never been a member of The LDS church, You could not possibly understand exactly how it affects every aspect of your life, nor would I expect you too. It is not just deciding not to go to that church any more. It is a decision to leave your life as you know it, while still holding onto the thoughts of not being with your family after you die, that have been ground into your head so deep that you will probably not be able to loose the anxious feelings for the rest of your life.
A huge area of hardship has been letting the people I know around me that we have made this huge leap of faith, and have left the LDS church. My two best friends, that are my biggest support system, are members of the church still, which has provided us with an odd void in our relationship. There are so many things that you do not do when you are LDS, or that you do do, that it is a must to let people around you know when you come to this decision. For example, you have callings in the church, or for those that do not understand "jobs", so if you cannot fulfill these callings you must let people know. Plus visiting teaching...etc....
It has been very difficult, but I have finally let almost everyone know, and trust me the reaction was not exactly positive. But I have come to the conclusion that this blog entry is a must. I have to get this out there, I cannot in any way shape or form "pretend" to be Mormon any more.
My reasons for leaving the church are many, but the main and most important reason is because I knew that I had lost my relationship with Jesus Christ, and God was telling me that he is not my business partner but that he loved me. I am not expected to be perfect, but I am expected to repent. the Bible tells us over and over again that we gain salvation through the atonement of Jesus Christ, not by obedience. Romans 3:20 says that no one can ever be made right in God's sight by doing what the law commanded.
Rom 3:20
Therefore by the deeds of the law there shall no flesh be justified in his sight: for by the law [is] the knowledge of sin.

This presents a huge problem with what I have learned in the church.
Verse 28 concludes that faith in Jesus Christ is what brings salvation. Not obedience.
Rom 3:28
Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law.

Also upon reading the Bible, I knew that I could no longer believe that God was once a man, and that we are striving to become a God ourselves.
It is so clear to me now...
" I am the same yesterday, today , and tomorrow" !
This cannot be if God was once a man.

I will not go on about why why I left the church, but I had to get this off my chest, that I am no longer a member of the LDS church. I guess technically I am, but I don't know what will happen with that. I have been to the Temple, so I do not know if I will be excommunicated or not, but as far as our minds and our hearts, we are no longer members of the church. My heart is back where it should be.
For the Christian women that read this, please pray for me, please pray that God will show my family peace and strength. Or if you are not Christian but believe or pray, please pray for me, I need it now more that ever.
God has been speaking to me, and for the first time in my life, it is loud and clear. Luke and I went out of this thinking that we don't think that they are a bad thing, just a little off on a few things. We have been praying and studying, and now know that these things that are being taught to people are in direct violation of what God has told us. We said, that we would never tell any of our Mormon friends why we came to the point where we were, but rather just tell them we don't want to get into it. We decided that because we did not want to "challenge" any ones faith. Missionaries still come over, we always tell them that we do not want to challenge any ones faith. As much as I want to stick to this "motto", God is VERY loudly saying "ummmm challenge it please". God is speaking to me, I don't know if he wants me to speak up about these things for our sake or for others, I just know that I must do what my heart is telling me is right. Everywhere we are God is telling me this. In church, sermons are speaking loud and clear. When we are reading our children's Bible at night before bed, the stories are EXACTLY what we need to hear. When we start talking to some one about something way off subject, what we need comes up. Everywhere God is saying... Trust me! Trust me and you WILL find peace! I brought you to where you are, I have a plan TRUST ME!.... I know that I must let people know about our journey into this religion. I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY, don't want to. But I know that above all else, I have to learn to trust God, and that he has a plan. I must let him use me how He has planned.
Concluding this, I can say for the first time in my life, and mean it from the bottom of my heart, GOD IS SO GOOD! He is my rock and my salvation, without Him... I am nothing. I FINALLY, after a lot of pig headed-ness, Get it....He IS the most important thing in my life....In every ones life...It just depends on if you can let go and say..."YES, you are God, huh? I guess you know what you are talking about after all"....